Long time no words.  I have made it through the most challenging 2 years.  I...am at loss for words..except dreams that have been fulfilled,  and Loss. I have learned so much about myself, my friends...and communication.  Mom has whipped skin cancer..again.  Its been a rough road for her..but each time I see her..there is a litlle more of her.  It was like watching star trek when they stand inthe transporter.  As her treatment went on, 39 radiation treatments and 3 chemo, she became lees like the woman i knew...fading..getting lighter in strength, weight and herself.  just flickering enough i would be able to take her hand.  And as time has gone on..she began becoming more solid.  She was brighter, shimmering in andout at first, but lately I see her clearly. She is strong. She is wonderful. She is scarred...but she walks on and laughs with the day.  I've always said...She is beautiful like Princess Grace...and talks like Jack Nicholson.  best of both worlds...and I love her.  I admire her. I adore her....and I am her.

Gypsyfox (MAIN BLOG): First Blog

Gypsyfox (MAIN BLOG): First Blog

through hell and back

Its been a lifetime since I was here, so much has happened. My manfriends' mother passed into a better place. It was a long drawn out hospitial ICU stay after surgery, and into a rehab for acute care. However, her little body was worn out,tired as she was, she longed I think for her late husband and daughter, who preceeded her in death. She was a wonderful person, an accomplished artist, and raised two of the most respectful, gentle, loving men I've ever met. Real gentlemen. She worked them like puppets to the last, and was critical in some very soft spots, but she only did what she knew or had been done to her. So...I wish Merry, we'd had more time, reguardless of how big you think my ass looks in those jeans. Haha.
I and Monte are trying to buy the home place, and have a spot of our own. I look forward to being in my own space with a man that treasures me. Truly, gonna be a new experience. Plans for "SPALON" in the back half of the house. Coppercrowcollection in the garage. Lots of fairy lights in the canopy of trees that envelops the whole place. Margeritas, laughter and art. Pampering, no high stress, just enjoying people, and showing the woman before me who she was before she put herself last. That glimmer of ...Welll, there I am...tilt of the head recognition, is truly my gift to each one of you. To remember what a wonderful creature you are, and lets let the burdens of everyday slide off your back, deep breathe, and pull those shoulders back, to the queenly position they long for. Ahhhh. Remember.....Its your choice, everyday. To be the queen and make your day, or be the slavegirl and let the day happen to you. I SAY, CHOOSE QUEEN! Be the goddess and architect of your world. Make it your own, and never ever ever....apologize, for what was yours to begin with.
So lots of prayers and good vibes are welcome... I am ready to step out into the light. Shining on my face...I will rule with fun, jokes, sarcasm, and a love I can relax into. Get your ears back, girls! It is time. We have all been to our own Hell. Come back and know you made it. relish the ass-whipping and triumph of the survivor and fighter.

ever thankful

So ...today,  I find myself surrounded with such a positive response to my blog.  I cannot tell you how much it touches me that we are still all friends, but standing together, no judgement, just a fearless love for our friends.  And to honor me with your precious time and presence, It so rocks.  But... you all know... you have each, in a different way, hung through the not very pleasant times... and some visa versa I for you.   All of my Goddess's , friends, mothers, clientale, and of course you boys.  I just ask, if your reading this to really send strength to someone who needs us and be ever so to see the soul before the girl.  I will be accompanying Monte to Denver on Sat after the wedding hair is all done.  Have a great, Kick a#@, Easter, and don't let the Easter Pig get you.  I am humbled and honored to be amongst such a beautiful, intelligent, talented, top notch, beings.  Love to you all.  Now... go forth and know....We each have our own posse of Gods and Goddesses.  Helll, lets go out with a bang, No fear. None.  Just trust in the love that surrounds you and the universe is undoubtedly unfolding as it should.     Now take a breathe and realize how powerful we are, as one and togbether as one.  Lets's ROCK that easter bunnys butt,  WAHOOOO>!!!

careless crow

hello, you bold shining stars,!!! This last weekend... I helped several people do something that was not natural to them or should we say...that they found challenging.  As I watched or listened to them....I realize, when I do something,  I just do it.  I don't plan, don't practice, and certainly don't try.  It just comes so natural for me to look at something, decide, and execute what I want to do.  I flit around framing, to floral, to collage, to scrapbooking, to assemblege', to cooking, to decorating, to creating, the list is endless.  Pretty much if it's sitting still, it's fair game.  I just do. 

And I never think a thing about it.  I thought everyone does this.  Don't they?  Well... much to my surprise and humble self,  they do not think like me, or anything.
    So... as I watched the struggle between what is and what can be,  I got really grateful.     I am ashamed that I have been so carefree with what god gifted me with.  I may be damaged goods,  but I am talented in all I pursue.  What a blessing I have.  Being different..  No... being lesa,  is ok, and a good thing.  Scanner manipulator extrodinaire".  Queen.  Now I can breathe.  Thank you for these gifts, and let me put it to good use.  Amen

ALONE....NO MORE.

I have been following and carousing blogs since thanksgiving. I had heard of them, but why would I need one or want to read one. So... in my arrogance or ignorance....I stumbled upon a blog. My little western Kansas world was ROCKED!!!! I now had at my fingertips new worlds, women to admire, and a plethora of ideas and creativity. It has set me free and on fire. I no longer am alone. I can sit down and be inspired at any time. It is my bliss. I left a comment on a blog for the first time today. A connection perhaps, friend, like soul? Who knows? Most importantly....I reached out. I have something to offer, and am joining the ranks of women and men who's creative expressions and dreams, no longer are confined to a stoic, boring, expectations of their locations. WAHOOOOOO!!!!! Lets rock this world. Love one another, and be kind to all.